Lord have mercy for what we done

It's difficult to decide what to write in this thing. The probability is that very few peopel will ever read this, so does it really matter what I write?
I've been doing a lot of thinking lately. I really do have no clue where I want to go in life. I really want to take spring semester off, but if my parents help me pay for school/rent then I won't be able to. I want to find a job that pays more than $5.15 an hour so I don't have to get a second job, but that looks like a negative. I want to buy some new cd's but I'm completely broke. I need to get out of this town...at least for a little bit. I don't hate Douglasville, but the fact is it sucks to be disliked or treated like a stranger in the place you grew up. I have to actively avoid going some places because of people immaturity (I know that I also caused a good bit of it but for once in my life I just feel like getting to bitch) and I don't really have that many people left in this town. I probably would have been better off staying in Statesboro like I planned, but I came back. My family is being pretty great...or maybe they were always great and I, like most people, was to selfish and self-centered to notice. They all have their shortcommings but for the most part they've helped me alot so far this summer. Mark is wonderful of course, and it sucks that he's stuck in Cedartown, but we could have it alot worse. At least we get to see each other a good bit, but I want our Sunday mornings back, where we just lay in bed and listen to The Velvet Undergrounds Sunday Morning...waking up alone sucks. This summer is going to be hard...I've known that for a while...but Statesboro is just around the corner.